Long overdue !! :)

All rite... Mr Eshwar reminded me that I have not been really blogging ... So here I am ..

Ok I think goin thru each day is gonna be a bit tiresome... So i am gonna just tok abt stuff that come into my twisted little brain...

It has been a week since my last blog... Let's see what has happened... I have come back to work from leave.. Work from 7 - 9 Jan was tough cos i was away so long and there are so many projects that i need to head... I was called and told that i need to be more firm towards my colleagues and push to get work sorted out and buck up... But How am i to even concentrate on my work when i have to handle so much of other stuff too.. Brought it up and was asked to delegate those tasks out... Ahem... To who ah?? Dunno.. then how?? Haizzz...

On fri nite, Some of us from Braddell Pri Sch had a small gathering... It was fun meeting up with them... And as usual ended up at Chaks :) But this is gonna be (sup) the last clubbing outing for at least the next 2 mths !! hahaha.. we'll seee...

Also over the weekend i headed down to the 1st Singapore Tattoo Show held at Expo... Since my dear Prem and Wesly played me out... I last min manda kaluvuraen Jo to bring me.. hahahaha.. Poor guy didn't see it coming.. But i was not so bad.. I paid the entry charge for him alstho he said no... See i still have a bit of manasaatchi ...
The Show itself was awesome.. altho i wasn't there like for long.. i enjoyed every moment of it.. Jo kept saying i looked like a kid in disneyland.. :)) hehehehe...

On Sunday nite, i got very upset... There were words exchanged bet myself and siva.. I felt that
1) He totally doesn't hv any sort of feelings for me - Ok can handle cos i also dun love him anymore...

2) He insists that i am a bitch and a slut - Hmmm... shd i be upset... I mean many ppl tell me i shd not bother... But I basically know Siv from the age of 15... He practically raised me.. He knows my darkest secrets.. but to use those against me, stuff that i had no power to stop.. makes me wonder abt the guy i slept with, lived with, laughed with and basically lived with for 7 years...

3) he said that i will nvr have a happy life - Hmm.. a curse?? Right!! Ok let's evaluate... I have my kids... you have visitation rights.. I have a proper job.. You are still finding something stable... The only thing you hv above me right now.. Is parental support... But how can i have that when you have poisoned my parents' minds against me?? But to think back.. If my parents' can be poisoned by wat u said.. How much do i mean to them then?? Well my dad is one of those who called me a Slut anyway so....

So i was pretty upset over the above and a bit more the whole of Monday and up till Tuesday aftn... But then realized.. Y shd i be upset over wat he says... So he thinks i can't make it.. then prove that you can... Make him regret the day when he pushed you away !!.. But more than all tat... If i break down, what example am i setting to my very impressionable kids... So i decided.. heck it.. I will live my life... The way i deem fit.. The only ppl i will bother abt will be my kids, sis and some close frens... Cos these ppl care... And so since then, I have been ok.. Been concentrating on work.. Finishing up stuff.. organising... Life's looking good again.. Not gonna say that i will nvr feel down again.. but for now.. I am fine !!